The Princess Diary

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Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Hip hop audition

i sux at hip hop, full stop.

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the thing is, i had a chat with my new found friends, all from arts faculty: they include camy, sharon and rebecca, of which the 1st 2 are from cheerleading. they tot i was from arts at 1st too! woohoo. i looked good am i? but the thing is, all 3 of them were attached! okz, they are chio bu i know, but i felt so extra being unattached. and when i said i just broke up, they really comforted me alot and said they couldn't really tell my sadness coz i always look so cheerful to them. (i think i can join mediacorp...) in our conversation, we shared experiences bout relationship and so on, and it was then i realised i really let ys down alot. i discovered i was perhaps too possessive over him in the past where we spent almost every single minute tgt, resulting in him losing his social life. and now that we had broken up, he had few friends to hang out with, as such minimizing his social circle, which is so mentally unhealthy for him. i wonder how is he doing now...

as for my side, i found out i was very anti-social in the past, and i had really little friends, not to mention i wasn't close to my og mates too. i din even make an effort to be more friendly with my og mates in jc, resulting in a rather dormant me. and with little friends, my mood arent tt good most of the times, always irritated by little things. and after i had ys, i become even more reliant on him, always feeling at ease in my little comfort zone and seldom making new friends, not to say hang out with them. hence, sometimes, i would have tiffs with ys, complaining he's neglecting me when it was actually me who wasn't looking for my own friends and own activities to pass time. my life had been circling around ys and i really missed out lotsa of opportunities and events in jc because my information network was not well laid. i believed he had the same feeling too coz he had been regretting alot since we graduated from j2. life was in fact, dry and routine-liked coz we had fewer and fewer things to chat abt due to limited exposure.

after the breakup, there seemed to be a gate unlocked in front of me, letting out all my suppressed emotions, forcing me to make more friends and enlarge my social circle. my mum had said tt i looked more cheerful than before, rather than the sian look. probably i guessed. i do enjoy my time with friends, actually enjoyed it alot. so maybe i should thank ys for letting me go? (the optimist) i hope he's enjoying his singlehood too.

no lies, i still feel sad when i think of him. i love him abit too much i guess...

posted by Princess Pia @ 9:16 PM
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